I've been really open about trying to get pregnant with baby #2. As time has gone on I've had to ask myself some really hard questions over and over, like, Can I really handle two kids? How do you balance life with two kids? What if they're both very needy at the same time? I love Elliana more than I ever thought possible, will I really love the next one as much?
Even though I don't have answers to these questions, seeing as how I don't have two kids yet, I feel as though I've gotten some really good practice in over the last few weeks.
I've agreed to watch my friend's 1 year old son on Mondays for the summer. I'll be honest, the first Monday did NOT go well. I think he was just upset because he wasn't familiar with me or our house. Let's just say that most of the day was spent with him crying, me holding him so he wouldn't cry, and Elliana crying just because she was jealous that I was holding him so much. That day left me a little scared. I thought to myself "maybe it's best that I don't have another baby for a while". However, today is the 2nd Monday and it has been much, much better. I actually got him and Elliana down for a nap at the same time! Go me!
I'm also watching my niece and nephew for 1.5 days while my sister is on vacation. My first day watching Devyn and Hudson was last thursday. Aside from the huge mess that was left, the day went pretty smooth in my opinion. I took Devyn, Hudson AND Elliana swimming at the free lake by our house. I even packed everything we needed, snacks, towels, diapers, swim diapers, sunblock, etc. That's right, I did it all with THREE kids! Again, so proud of myself. ;) Ha! I guess we'll have to see how tomorrow goes.
In all seriousness though, I've learned that I don't have to be so overwhelmed at the idea of two kids. God gives me the strength, the energy, and the patience when I need it. No, life won't be as easy as it's been with just one child, but I'm sure I'll manage (with God's help... and Caleb's help too). I can't remember life before Ellie, and I now know how empty my life would be without her. I'm sure I'll feel the same way about the next child, whenever that may be.
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