Wednesday, July 7, 2010

The Sun Will Come Out Tomorrow

They say when it rains, it pours. It was definitely pouring for me last week.

First there was the miscarriage, around the same time a rash appeared on my body from head to toe with no explanation as to where it came from, then I was in the ER because my throat was swelling and I was having trouble breathing, the rash appeared to be here to stay for a while despite the fact that I'd been to several Dr.'s, my body did not like the meds I was put on for the rash, and yesterday Elliana was diagnosed with an ear infection and strep throat. Ugh.

I seriously felt like I was in a fog all last week. I would even say that I felt depressed. I had no energy, I didn't want to do anything, and I was losing my mind from dealing with the incredibly itchy mystery rash. I was beginning to feel like Job.

Then, over the weekend, God got my attention.

Friday I was driving to a movie with my sisters and girlfriends and I saw a rainbow up in the sky. I started crying. The tears just kept rolling and I almost had to pull over. I called Caleb and sobbed with him over the phone. I had not dealt emotionally with this miscarriage, and seeing the rainbow forced me to.

Let me give you a little history about the relationship between me and rainbows. I'm aware that this sounds cheesy, but it's very real to me.

3 years ago, right before I had my first miscarriage, I saw a rainbow in the sky while driving to work, and it brought me to tears. I hadn't even lost that baby yet, but I had a sick feeling. I knew God was speaking to me through that rainbow. He was preparing me then for what was about to happen, but at the same time reminding me of his promises and that he was with me.

All throughout my pregnancy with Elliana I would see a rainbow and smile. I knew God was telling me that she was okay and that again, he was with us.

Over the course of this past weekend, I saw 4 rainbows. I think God was clearly sending me a message. He reminded me that he wasn't going to let it rain forever, and he wasn't going to leave me hopeless and depressed. He was there all last week when I was in my fog, and he was going to bring me through to the other side. And he has.

I feel as though I've really turned a corner over the last day or two. Both emotionally and physically. The mystery rash is gone (Praise the Lord), my energy is returning, and I just feel like my old self again. I'm ready to be the wife and the Mom that I need to be, and to move forward from here. And thank God, Elliana seems to be responding well to her antibiotics.

"Whenever the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and all living creatures of every kind on the earth." Genesis 9:16

I'm so thankful for a God that loves us and speaks to us in so many ways. I'm also thankful for rainbows. :)


Becky said...

What a heartfelt and touching post Christine! I LOVE it when God speaks to us through nature, whether it's rainbows, sunshine or even a blizzard. I'm so thankful you felt Him with you through all this and I'm glad you feel like you're turning a corner and returning to your old self again. =)

Jenn with Munchkin Land Designs said...

I don't have the words to express my love for you. You are amazing and I look up to you (yes, even as the oldest sister) in so many ways. You are precious!

Tara Brown said...

God Bless you Chris! Thank you for the inspiration you are in trusting God through anything - good, bad or ugly. May your heart, body and soul continue to heal and be rejuvenated for His great purposes!

Melody said...

What a beautiful post. This really touched my heart. Its strange because God often sends me a rainbow in the difficult times too. I'm praying for you during this difficult time. I've been there many times myself so I know the inner battle you are facing.

Kendra said...

Praying for you from Alaska and heartbroken for you...Will write more soon. Love, Kendra

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I am a daughter of the King. Saved by grace. Follower of Christ. I love my God and I believe that he is faithful and true to his word! I'm still figuring out and trying to follow his plan for my life. I am a wife to my best friend Caleb, a mother to my miracle babies (they are my greatest joy and challenge), a sister and best friend to 3 passionate women, and a daughter to 2 amazing parents that continue to teach me what it is to be real and faithful to God and his word. I am lucky to get to be a stay at home Mom (thanks to God's provision). I love music, singing, coffee, cooking, baking, traveling, our beautiful state of Colorado, and mostly being with the family and friends that I love!

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Caleb is an amazing husband and father. He is always so good to me. He is my best friend. He is the romantic one. We love to laugh and spend time together. We've been married for 7 years and I just love that I get to spend the rest of my life with him.

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Elliana Faith... God blessed us with our first miracle little girl in December 2008. She is sweet, smart, spunky, funny, strong willed, precocious, extremely outgoing, vocal and so full of life! She brings us so much joy.

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Ethan James,.. God blessed us with our little boy in March 2011. Ethan was a bit of a surprise and an even bigger miraclle. Ethan is ALL BOY! He is very active, into sports and running around. He is also sweet, introverted, affectionate, and laid back. These days he often has us laughing, he's starting to show a little bit of "clown" in him. He makes our hearts happy too. :)

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Emsley Jeannette... Our surprise baby girl was born on June 11th, 2013 and came into the world 4 weeks early. Her first 2 weeks of life were spent in the NICU, but due to God's hands and the prayers of many people, she grew quickly and came home to join our family! She is an easy, sweet baby and we are enjoying getting to know her personality.


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