Tuesday, March 9, 2010

In His Hands

I have a lot on my mind right now.

I keep reminding myself that each circumstance is in God's hands, and I just need to trust in him.

First of all, I just got word that sweet Layla Grace went home to be with the Lord this morning. She is literally in his hands now. If you have not heard about this heart wrenching story, please click on the link. I have not been able to get her off of my mind since I found out about her story.

One week from today I will be saying goodbye to Caleb for 8 days. He will be going on a mission trip with the seniors from his school to Belize. While I know this is an awesome opportunity to be used by God in many ways, I also (selfishly) hate the idea of being apart from Caleb that long. I also hate to admit it, but I'm a worrier.



I'll be spending several nights at my parent's house while Caleb is gone. It's like my sister Courtney once said, this is what all grown, adult women do when their husbands are away. Ha ha!

Seriously though, I realize Elliana is great company, but I'll also need some adult company while Caleb is gone. Plus, I just don't think I can hack it as a single Mom. Ha!



I'm really going to miss Caleb and I'll be praying for safety for the whole group and that God will use all of them in a big way.



Another huge thing on my mind right now, is a phone call that I received from my former boss this morning. I am very flattered by the great offer that she gave me and I just don't know what to do.

When I quit work back in August, I really felt that was God's leading and a huge answer to prayer. I quit for many reasons, but the main one was to spend more time with Elliana. We knew that we would be tight financially but that God would provide. And he has provided, in so many ways.

However, this morning my former boss called and said she really wanted me back. I instantly turned down the opportunity to come back working the same hours I was working before. I was working 24+ hours per week when I left, and I felt that was too much time away from Elliana. Then she said that where she missed me the most, and really needed me, was in training new employees, both on the computer system and just in general. She offered to pay me really well to just come in a couple hours, a few days per week to train people. I would only have to be away from Ellie 6-10 hours per week. I told her that was an offer that I would seriously consider. After all, even though God has provided for our every need, it would be nice to have some extra money for fun and for savings.

If I accept, I wouldn't feel at all like I am missing out on any milestones or like I am spending too much time away from Ellie. The only catch is, I don't know who would watch Ellie for 6-10 hours per week. So, there you have it. An awesome opportunity and I really don't know what to do. Again, I'm praying and trusting that God will lead me to the right decision.

Another circumstance that has been on my mind and heart a lot is this whole trying to get pregnant again thing. This has been my first month back on clomid and although it's too soon to know for sure, it doesn't appear as though it worked this month. I know that it takes several months for even fertile couples to get pregnant, and that I need to be patient. However, if the clomid doesn't work, then I don't ovulate. And if I don't ovulate, then we have no chance of getting pregnant (sigh).

Like everything else in this post, it's all in God's hands and I need to trust in his plan and in his timing. For everything.

Proverbs 3:5 and 6
"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."

Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

I am so thankful that we serve a God that cares about all of the details of our lives, big and small.

5 comments:

Andrea said...

I hear your heart on the trials of trying to get pregnant. I'll be praying for you guys!
~Andrea

Sarah said...

praying for you sister! I know how hard it can be to have your husband gone. I did the single mom gig two whole weeks in January and didn't stay with my mom. It was hard, but God provided and proved the verse about "you can do all things through Him who gives you strength". And in regards to your journey to baby number two, I will be diligently praying for you! I'm tellin you, get on the vitex tincture, 60 drops a day mixed with juice. Do some research on the net to see what I'm talking about:).

Dareth said...

Christine, I am praying for you about work and child care and baby #2. God is a God of details. He always gets them right.
Love you.

Erin said...

Christine- I am friends with Dana & found your blog through hers. We live in the same town, and I was drawn to your site because of some struggles you have shared. After a long time of infertility, God blessed us with our son. He is now 16 months old. And like you, we recently decided to expand our family. I just want you to know that even though we have never met, I pray for you. I pray that God blesses you with another child. I know how emotionally exhausting it can be month after month. I look forward to reading the good news that you are expecting your second baby. God Bless.

Anonymous said...

Christine-
I'm praying for you, hon. For the decisions to make about returning to the job or not, and for baby #2. God's timing, honey, God's timing. I pray that God will use Caleb and his class on their mission trip. What an amazing opportunity!! And last but not least, can't wait for you to come stay for a few days with Ellie!! Should be sooo fun!! She is just a crack up!! =)
Love you, Mom

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